Saturday, 26 October 2013

Saturday Story

Hi! xD

Kajja Kajja Read my story~
For those who can't read a fantasy story
please leave immediately! xD 
Like seriously =..='' lol 

There it goes x)

Today is Saturday and as usual, i will follow my parents to go to market, surveying and buying stuff  for house needed. After having a shower, my mom scream from downstairs asking me to show my oldest brother where is his Baju Melayu at.

Owh, His workshop held an event for the workers. Ow ow~ before that, let me introduce you all about my oldest brother. He is 24 years old (2013) and he is working at the special child protection workshop. Yeah, he is special~ When he was 3 years old, my mom realised there is something wrong with my brother, he changed....He didn't acted like the real 3 years old boy...

He loves to be alone and playing with the toy car wheels.....and and and AND VERY HYPERACTIVE!!!! when my parents sent him to the hospital, at that time,they wanted to inject my big bro a calm injection..well you know... 6 people was holding him to just get an injection!!! and and AND...HE BROKE THE NEEDLE!!!! OH DEAR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! He is really...WOW! HOw can he did that?? Like a metal guy, or SUperman! lmao xD then in the end, the doctor suggest to give him pills so they could make a check up on him... lol i donno, so, the one who could control my oldest bro is MY DAD. My Dad asked him to eat the pills and drink some water. Then, THE END,, no more problem with it.. HAHAHA so, the final result is, there is a Chinese veteran doctor said, he suffered from an Autism. Let me Google the meaning of the Autism.

"Autism is a developmental disorder that appears in the first 3 years of life, and affects the brain's normal development of social and communication skills." 

At that moment, an Autism problem is a very rare case to known in the hospital and among the doctors... So its really late for my brother to have his treatment. as for now, my parents and another 5 siblings including me will take care of him. My Mom ever mention this to me, after they(my parents) 'left' this world, who would take care of him? on the same time, i was thinking what will happen in the future... 

From that moment, i wanted to make myself to be a successful person and be rich, so i could taking care of my brother. Full fill his needs, and treat him well~ That is one of my dream~ but what if i left first before him? Will my other siblings take care of him? All of it, i left the fate to the Almighty, ALLAH.

Hemmm....Until now my oldest brother could not talk properly, can't focus on an object, and his behaviour is just like 3 years old kid. :'I LOL when i was a lil kid, i doesn't understand at all why my brother acted like that, but as time passed by and i had grown up, I could understand it very well~ My family can read on what he want, what he needs, and what he dislike... Well, when he dislike something, he'll start to rebel!!! Dx'' I was so scared at first, but now i didn't coz i know what he don't like. 

.....After ready to go to market, my dad send him first at his workshop and asked the trusted teacher to help us take care of him while my parents away~ In my mind, i still remember the image when my big bro went off from the car and start to running into the workshop. LOL It brings a tears to my eyes. Poor my brother~ Poor him... I holding back my tears, I won't let my mom and dad notice it and plus, it will ruined my eyeliner... hehee it just an another excuse. 

Oh well! my father drive us to an under tree restaurant. It was a very famous restaurant in the neighbourhood. We have breakfast and i paid ;) LOL I am happy that i paid for the breakfast by using my own money. The money that i earned from the volunteer job. Mwaahahaa!! erhem... okay okay, it starting to get bored huh?? xDDD i know, i am bored too xDD 

let me make a short cut in here, 

(inside the market) 

while me and my mom walking at the fruit section, suddenly i remembered an image about someone.... -giggles- Its KJM oppa... I remembered the picture of him at the fruit section in supermarket. He was holding a packet of green apples. LOL I smiled like a child when remembering it. ahahahaaaa Again, I miss him :P ahaksss 
Like a habit, i take off my phone from my pocket and look at the screen. His picture is there. :3 I smiled and keep the phone back in the pocket. I'll be dead if my mom saw it(my behave) xD


after 3 hours shopping this and that, we went back to my bro's workshop to pick him up. The event just end. We need to pick him up hurry coz he hates sitting in the crowd.. :3 poor my bro~ As soon he saw me, he run off from his place to get in my dad's blue unser car. I hold his hand to guide him to my dad's car,,(or else i'll be scold by my dad) -gulp- hahahaa


Tuesday, 17 September 2013

O-N-O (S.B.R. Special Addition)

O-N-O??? what is that?? haaa~ Jeng jeng jeng~ suspend tak?? :PP

you wanna know the meaning of O-N-O?
Lets hear some of my story in here~ LOL i know its gonna be bored ._.v
so i warned to those who dislike to read fantasy story, you may leave....GO GO GO!! xDD
lol mian2~ :3 i was just 'JOKING' :P -bow-

Anyway~ Lets just start the story now,,

These passed few months~ many things had happen~
about my love story? Its... nah~ it is correct! x'D lol
I just wanna tell something that makes me think on the TITTLE above~

Its mean, One aNd Only~ 
O-N-O (sounds like OH No!) lol
One - aNd - Only 
The first person who ever stay longer and seriously and i have loved him passionately! in my life~ lol Its KJM :3

HUUUWAAAAAAAAA~!!!!!!!!!!!! i mention his name again!!! >///< lmao
Even though he just my passed, but i still keeping him inside my heart~ 
It is true that I made my mind to let him go~ Just a plenty of people could understand why~ though its hurt much 100x more than i love him!! >< really!! but i endure it every night, every day~ my chest hurt every time i wanna sleep at night,,coz i keep thinking of him~ :'') 
-sigh- i wish i could keep him longer with me, but the longer i keep him, the harder the situation~ 
with his luxurious life and my simple life~ we are just like the sky and the ocean! (can that count?) hahaa :')

i know, some of the people may think that if you still love each other, why you have to separate?  If you need each other, why you have to be apart? 
well~ what i believe is, if he was meant to be with me, i wont feel regret if he is coming back to me again~
i wont let him go if he come back to me again~ 

hemm..coz of ego, we separate too~ thats...too bad.... I am coward, and stupid too -3- 
i admit that -face palm- aish~ that person, he already left long time ago(?), but why i am still feeling that he is still right beside me? maybe it is just my feelings?? -look down- yeah~~ can say that i regret a bit with my action~ :I regretting for letting him go~ coz i only know him in my life~ i just couldn't accept other guy!!!

so i planned, to live with his love until  the day my mom and dad wanna let me go to other guy.... -cry- 
aish! why am i writing that sad words? :'p mian reader! anyway~ i think i am breathing with the love that he ever gave to me~ It is too many until i can live today! i can feel his deep love for me, but bleh~ i hurt him! 
bad girl!! heheh :'p 

Ha! i wanna share something~ The day when he gonna have his last(50-50) surgery, i think it is a week before his 25th birthday(K-age), 110213, i ever wish before, to God, Take away half of my life to give it to him. So, i could live and die together with him. LOL isn't that scary to hear?? heheh but i just couldn't resist it, perhaps God did heard about my prayers? until now the O-N-O person still alive and healthy! ^^ i am so thankful and grateful!!!! he could proceed on his normal life now~ Don't you feel something bad? I was his gf, and he even called me his wifey :3 (lol i still like it just by writing this :P) ehem! but i just couldn't do anything for him along his surgery period.... I couldn't visits him, cooks him, or maybe be there with him... No money, no power, i am just useless and helpless~ 
what else i could do is just praying~ is it enough? hemm..... i didnt regret giving him half of my life coz i love him~ he said, he don't care buying gifts for his gf coz he loves 'her', while me? giving half of my life? wow~ 
Eventhough, i am still young to die~ Long live Me :3 lololololol 

well~ actually, i have a lot of things to share~ but maybe i will continued soon~
now the clock is 2:48 am~ the time that i always meet him~ but, now not anymore~ He is not mine anymore~ -sigh- appo jinjja :P 

Secret Word for today -----> (Butter-Honey F.R.)
thats all?? naah~ to be continued


Sunday, 21 April 2013

The Only Way for Me

A week ago was very crazy and everyone is REALLY CRAZY including me -_-''
Again, i felt like having a fever now -,.-'' Why am I being so weak when i almost 19?? duuuuhh~
Luckily my fever not too HOT :3 yeeww~

Cute Huh?? Yoo Baeki <3 I am falling for you now~ x') 



Dear my beloved friends, 

I guess i'm gonna stop doing anything now~ Stop on what??? EVERYTHING~ LOL 
I've been killing my own self this lately by doing on something that i hate the most! x') 
Poor myself!! Yeah, thats right, people around me see me as a GOOD PERSON coz I learnt from my mother to be patient, respect the others, be nice and friendly, smile like you will never ever see them again,,and so, don't just judge other people if you didnt know the truth behind it. 

I learnt from my father to be independent, don't shade your tears easily, discipline!, on everything you do need a perfection, thinking smartly, don't be too cheap and perfection perfection!!! Gaaaahh~ This is killing me -_-'' but i understand why my dad and my mum teach me and my siblings all that, because the world is getting colder~!! The world is getting colder because people make it be like that~ Chang! naega Keutnasseo! 

what actually i want to say that, i am a bad girl who is behind a good girl mask. I want to leave all of you but i am just stupid, it will never last for an hour xD so, i wont leave ya~ :PPP 


As for now, i don't know what should i do~ i only could help to calm people down and give a positive thinking on them~ Well its good, coz sometimes my positive thinking is leading to solution~ That is my ability i guess ;)

##On my bad side says "I should leave FAM right away, coz i am not needed anymore :)" 
##On my good side says "How can I leave them??? after all we've been through~" well -_-'' its all BITTER.. Sad Sad love story, and a happy-go-lucky PABO TEAM~ Hahaaa~ Memories will just left as memories~ 
My brain, it full of song lyrics, Mathematics Formulae and Memories~ All 3 in once~ Bad brain xD i only Got three of them in it~ Pabo me :P 

Naah~ I guess i need to STOP doing anything now~ While i am nothing at all~ 

-rolling and jump on bed and rolling again and cover with blanket and sleep- 

Owh owh before that, *close the lamp* sleep tight people <3 


Monday, 25 March 2013

Warm Speech??

Selamat Sejahtera~

^_____________^ How are you all today???
Sick? Fine? Hurt? Happy? Lonely? Angry? Hyper? Owesome? Hungry? Moody? Kinky? Broken? xDD

Just comment down there, so, i can know how you all feeling today \(^O^)/
Btw, Today, i wanna write something warm coz this morning is so cold!!! ~(>o<")~

I Missed everyone in here~!!! (WHO??) <3 :PP

Jinnie a.k.a Nisa <3

Dear My Jinnie,
I was so worried when  heard that you are sick~ i saw your posts but i couldn't comment or say anything coz i was so in hurry~ Please Get well soon my Baby!! ^O^
I miss you so much and wondering when will i have time to meet you,CL and Lulu again?
Playing like we used to do? Heheheee~ WE WILL!! and i am shooooo jealoush with you blog!!
You've got a very nice pitcha!! wanna edit pictures too!! :3 after my final exam :DD
LOVE YOU JINNIE!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3


CL a.k.a Zaty <3

Dear My CL,

I know you always awesome! :DD and... always getting mad of someone???
(Let me kill that person!! >:D )
Btw, like you said to me before, "If that person is fated for you, you will end up to be with him."
yeah,You are right, i should have remembered on that~ So, i won't keep on hoping the false hope~
Thanks for remembering me!!! -huggy tight2- LOVE YA!!!!!!!! :* <3


I guess i should stop now,
its taking a lot of time for me to write this blog LOL
and i donno why xDDD

See ya Lucky people <3
=WARMJaekyi= xD

Saturday, 16 March 2013

Humans and Shadows

We can see how close they are between humans and shadows~
Shadows is like a best friend,
Whenever there is a bright ray through over you,
There will be a shadow accompany you all the time~
Even that shadow never speak at you or you never talk with it...

Whenever the night comes, the ray will be gone and only left the dim of light from the moon,
Once again the shadow appeared again and accompany you walking at the night~
Even under the dim of light...

For how much people step on your shadow,
It will never ever leave you and always stay by your side. LOL

It is okay if you are refusing to talk with me.
And it is okay if you are ignoring me whenever i was trying to approach you :')
maybe there is something i did to you that makes you do all of that.
Maybe i am not cared enough to you and i was doing a stupid thing before? (Yeah, i did)
Oh2! I remember of something, the video that you post at Fam group, the one with the coin picture..
i open back my Sora account just to find out what song you ever give it to me and match it with the one in that video, but non of it matched Dx
I even asked for my sister,Lily, help e to find out what song is that..
In the end, she find it out for me...
She really into Infinite, so thanks to her i finally find it out! \(^O^)/
#It is Infinite's song - Can You smile~ right??? Yeah i am right xDD (so slow i am)
 Daebak!! That's is so awesome! and -Thumbs up- x'DD


still, I am fine with all of it~
and you know, i want to be your shadow(?)
Things that always accompany you without saying anything~
and when there is a light, i will appeared to accompany you faithfully! :D

Song song song???

Errrrr.......................HUH! I have a song that always keep playing on my mind,,over and over! >o<
Let me just share it with you then ;)

If You Love Me by NS Yoonji


Friday, 8 March 2013

It's All About 3 Weeks.. (WHY AM I LIKE THIS?)

Good Evening? xD

I just want to share something that i couldn't share with my sis :')
I wasn't in the right mind before, so i did a lot of mistakes that lead to a lot of misunderstanding.
The moral of the value is learn from the mistakes and never repeat your mistakes.
Well actually, my friends saw me not in the real condition... What can i say?
Emm...I wasn't as 'Hyper' like before, as 'Happy-go-lucky' like before, and as 'crazy' like before??
Crazzzzzzzyyyy?????? Imma not crazzzzzzyyyyy -_-'' okay~

All of that happens coz it have been 3 weeks i didn't see my parents...
3 weeks i didn't back home yet..
3 weeks i didn't eat my mum's cooks...
3 weeks I didn't sleep in my bedroom...
3 weeks i didn't see my cats...
3 weeks i didn't watch TV...
3 weeks i didn't ride on my motorcycle...
and so on.... (infinity)

and sure i feel that i miss him since the last day he left~
I wish that the time is stop, so i could spent my time with him longer than it suppose to be.
but it is all just a wish~
I only could wishing him a real happy life
and he could move on his life better than before, even without me :) .........-sigh-

well then, let me share you all the songs that keep on playing in my mind for this issues LOL

Westlife - HOME


Another summer day,
Has come and gone away,
In Paris and Rome,
I want to go home,
Maybe surrounded by,
A million people I,
Still feel all alone,
I just want to go home,
Oh I miss you, You know,
And I've been keeping all the letters,
That I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two,
I'm fine baby how are you,
Well I would send them but,
I know it's that it's just not enough,
The words were cold and flat,
And you deserve more, Than that,

Another aeroplane,
Another sunny place,
I'm lucky, I know,
But I want to go home,
I've got to go home,
Let me go home
I'm just to far,
From where you are,
I've got to come home,
Let me come home,
I've had my run,
Baby I'm done,
I want to come home,

And I feel just like,
I'm living,
Someone else's life,
It's like i just stepped outside,
When everything was going right,
And I no just why you could not come along with me,
'Cause this was not your dream,
But you always believed in me,

another winter day,
Has come and gone away,
In either Paris and Rome,
And I Want To Go Home,
I miss you, You know,
Let me go home,
I've had my run,
Baby I'm done,
I want to go home,
Let me go home,
It'll all be alright,
I'll be home tonight,
I'm coming back home.



=PABOYAYA= :3 Ngeehehehehehe~ <3

Sunday, 3 March 2013


"...Stop waiting for him. You have life also! He won't comeback anymore..Don't waste your time!..."

How did you feel when you heard this?
I, myself don't know what did i feel actually.. But those words opens my eyes..and hurt my heart.. </3 LOL
That person is really are something...did he put something inside his tongue? a BLADE? perhaps LOL xDD

My friends give me a song that really touches my heart. :') It is a sad song...
It is~ So, i will provide my reader a lyric and a video~!! Yeyey~ <\(^O^)/> Let us sing along!!!


What Hurt The Most by Rascal Flatts (Lyric)
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty houseThat don't bother meI can take a few tears now and then and just let ‘em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even thoughGoin' on with you gone still upsets meThere are days every now and again I pretend I'm okayBut that's not what gets me
What hurts the mostWas being so closeAnd havin' so much to sayAnd watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'What could've beenAnd not seein' that lovin' youIs what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I goBut I'm doin' itIt's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm aloneStill harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regretBut I know if I could do it overI would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heartThat I left unspoken
What hurts the mostIs being so closeAnd havin' so much to say(Much to say)And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'What could've beenAnd not seein' that lovin' youIs what I was tryin' to do, ohOh yeah
What hurts the mostWas being so closeAnd havin' so much to say(To say)And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'What could've beenAnd not seein' that lovin' youIs what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' youThat's what I was trying to do, ooo
So, how did you think? awesome?? LOL :P